Do you ever get the feeling that you're gearing up for something, or you expect or hope for something to happen, but in the end you get shot down...
False hopes, false dawns... Somehow every aspect of my life seems to be manifested by them... They've happened to me so many times, yet I cannot tell if one is coming...
Sometimes I feel like a fool... Why do I hope for so much when I know it won't go my way? It's just like Murphy's Law, "anything that can go wrong, will go wrong". My life follows that rule strictly... So strictly, that I'm supposed to be numb to it already... But I'm not.
Is it wrong to hope? Is it wrong to try so hard to get what you want? I don't know anymore. I always put in my best for everything I do, but somehow I hardly get the results I want. Am I aiming too high? Or am I just not trying hard enough? Or am I trying too hard? False hopes...
I don't know what to do anymore. Life's a bitch.
In The End by Linkin Park
It starts with
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
That I wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of the time when I
Tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I
Tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it
Got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of the time when I
Tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust, in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust, in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
"You'll Never Walk Alone" ... but it seems like I always will.
Archangel
